I have been aware lately that it seems that everything I write concerning my days or experiences have such a negative attitude about them and it concerns me. I don’t want to bring other caregivers down but encourage and lift them up. I feel like I am in this rut. I was going to say “for some reason”, but there are many reasons that I am fighting with negative thoughts and feelings. First of course is taking care of mom and all that goes along with that, which is to much to mention here! Next would be my son going back to Iraq on Friday for his 3rd tour, I am having a hard time with it which is really not normal for me. My husband is going back to see his mom in WV this week and will be gone for almost a week. I think I need a positive happy moment to show up like soon! Does that make sense to anyone? I’m sure it does. Anyone have any positive happy ideas?
Donna,
Don’t apologize for expressing your feelings negative or otherwise. We all need to vent sometimes,and I have not noticed that your blogs have been particularly negative. I am so sorry about your son going back to Iraq again. That with your caregiving responsibilities must hang heavy on your heart. Be assured of our concerns and prayers. Also remember that you are helping and lifting us all up just by your presence and by our being able to identify with your caregiving concerns.
Hi Donna–You know, I never think of you, or your posts, as negative. To me, you have a way of making the best of situations. Your post today, which describes your worries, made me think: Oh, my, it’s just too much for one person! Thanks so much for sharing with us. I hope it helps. I hope your son will be safe. I hope the week while your husband is away flies past. And, I hope, most of all, for a very special positive moment for you today.
Thanks Donna and Denise. Well I did get a good moment last night, Daniel called and his deployment is postponed a couple months. He has to go to Texas for officers school, working on his career as his “boss” told him. Char can go and see him at least while he is there. Then around the end of April he will be going to Iraq. According to him things are winding down as far as troops going over there, but since he is Special Ops., he will always be sent there or somewhere before the other troops. He won’t listen and get a different job! I have had sons in the army since the 1980′s! Would like to not have! I am immensely proud of them, don’t get me wrong, but it carries a different level of concern then just day to day things do. But, I trust God to watch over and protect them and He sees me and them through every war.
Gary is on his way to WV now, Trent will be over later and spend most of the weekend with me probably. Then there is mom of course, the ever constant companion lol.
I am glad you don’t feel I have been conveying negativity here, that is not what I want to do. I do want to be as open and honest about what I deal with on all levels, because I know I am not the only one who feels and experiences these things.
I will have a better day, I can feel it
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