Although every day has blessings if I look for them, I have seen special glimpses of grace in the past week or two. I had mentioned in a previous blog that I was going to try to put my husband on an antidepressant. Frankly, I was scared to death to try this because of possible side effects. I was also afraid it could make things worse.
Well, two weeks ago yesterday my husband went on the antidepressant. The first day or so he had some side effects which made me wonder, “What did I do by putting him on this?” After that first few days, however, I have noticed some good things beginning to happen. My husband, Wayne, seems less lethargic although he still sleeps during the daytime. He also seems happier. He even speaks more loudly and not always with a mumble. He is still difficult to understand, but at least he is not mumbling all the time. He has even been less lethargic when working with his physical trainer on Wednesdays. In short, I have caught some glimpses of the old Wayne I knew in the past. I call these glimpses of grace.
The old problems of lack of mobility, poor communication, poor small motor skills, and a host of other issues still persist, but I am thankful for these glimpses of grace. Early this morning he fell when he was transferring from the toilet to his wheelchair. This has happened only once before since he graduated to his wheelchair last summer. This shook me up again, and I was tempted to become discouraged and once again afraid for the future. As I contemplated Scriptural promises this morning, however, I am again reminded that I have glimpses of grace all around me. I am not in this alone, and I really do not need to fear the future.
A beautiful, heartfelt post. You give us all courage and strength.
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I’ve always felt that Mom’s antidepressant helped her nearly as much as the two Alzheimer’s drugs she takes. I’m glad you’ve found glimpses of grace in your journey through your husband’s illness. Thanks for this post.
I am so glad you can see your husband’s old self again. I’m sure that is just such a ray of light for you both. I don’t know what kind he is on, but even if the one he has now ends up not being the best, there’s something out there that will work for him. Personally, I tried three different anti-depressants before I found one that made me feel like ME again. The first one worked for a while but kind of numbed me out a little bit. When I finally found the one that fit, it was the biggest relief of my life. It’s likely you will have a very happy hubby, soon! I’m glad for you both!