Mom felt better this morning after sleeping the night. Part of the battle is watching Mom come home after dialysis and seeing a totally different person. She is already a different person and the hardship is watching her be somewhat lethargic which is not easy to do. I have to keep a brave face when I see her because she is already scared as it is and I don’t want her to see the scared look on my face.
On Monday I had asked my mother’s aide if she was working on New Years Day. She has been back and forth with her decision and today I asked her if she wasn’t coming to please call the agency to send someone else. After last weekend and the amount of stress I was under, I decided it was okay to ask for help. I know that I need it. Her aide decided to come tomorrow and I am very thankful for that. Whether it be for just a few hours or the whole day, I know I will be able to relax knowing that someone is taking care of her for awhile.
You are a disruptor. The delivery of health care starts with you, continues because of you, and ends with you. Let's disrupt together to make the world better for family caregivers. 
Bette
Meryl,
I’m so glad the aide is able to come tomorrow. I hope you are able to enjoy tonight knowing that you have the extra help coming. I continue to remind myself one challenge at a time. (:
Karen
It is so hard to see our loved ones suffering. It takes as great an emotional toll as the physical work we must do. It is not only okay to ask for help, it’s necessary for us to keep going. Hope you have a good day tomorrow.
Jo
Why is it so hard for us to ask for help? Stubborness…pride…tired of hearing “no”…bad past experiences…I don’t know but you are to be commended for being able to ask. Glad you are able to have a moment to relax.