After work I went to see Mom to spend some time with her. I still have not been feeling that great but decided I would go at least for a little while. Mom couldn’t wait till I got there. She was all smiles. Last week Mom said, “Your Mother is back” and lately I have been feeling how true that is. It’s scary because I don’t want it to stop. I enjoy seeing her like this. I wish more than anything I could bring her home.
When I got there, Mom reached into her walker and handed me a little gift bag and said “Happy Hanukkah” with a smile on her face. Mom has been helping someone sell costume jewelry in the home for the holidays. I almost cried when I saw this gift. Just the thought of her thinking of me made me so proud of her to see how much she fought back to be here today.
I left there feeling like nothing else that I am going through mattered. It doesn’t matter that there’s so much going on right now in my life because seeing her the way she is makes it all seem so unimportant.
Today I lit the first candle on the Menorah and also have the Christmas tree up which I call my Christmakkuh tree. I love when the holidays fall out at the same time. It’s such a beautiful time of the year.
Happy Hanukkah to all my caregiving friends who observe!