Finally, the new week is here.
I am feeling worried, stressed, and most of the weekend I have spent doing…nothing. Unless I was helping Smokey.
My work has slowed down and that stresses me because when it does, I fall behind on bills. Here it is the first of the month and I can’t pay much.
Mema is off on her time away with my friends and that’s good. She was divorced five years ago to a man that none of us cared for much. Just got news that he may not make it through the day. Mema was wanting to take him to court for falling behind on alimony payments, guess she knows why now.
I have thought of many different outcomes from the results of the tests Smokey is to have this week. Some of these thoughts cause me to cry, a lot. I just can’t believe sometimes after all this, after all this fighting to get better, it could very well be…
But we don’t know yet, that knowledge will come at the end of the week.
I am tired.
I must find some work, fast.
I don’t want to leave Smokey alone at all.
Sadi girl, our beautiful Aussie, needs to go to vet. She is 15 and showing it.
Will Mema want to come home early?
We have other people coming to visit, staying in my studio, do people not understand the pressure I feel to “entertain” and how tired I am? I don’t like a lot of people here. I love all the people, and we use to love to entertain and have people here, but now, it’s just too much…
Anyway, this is my loves, Smokey and Sadi resting. They do a lot of that now.