Another Week And Wait
Jun 4 2012 in Caring for Two, Carla's Blog by carlaschuchman
Finally, the new week is here.
I am feeling worried, stressed, and most of the weekend I have spent doing…nothing. Unless I was helping Smokey.
My work has slowed down and that stresses me because when it does, I fall behind on bills. Here it is the first of the month and I can’t pay much.
Mema is off on her time away with my friends and that’s good. She was divorced five years ago to a man that none of us cared for much. Just got news that he may not make it through the day. Mema was wanting to take him to court for falling behind on alimony payments, guess she knows why now.
I have thought of many different outcomes from the results of the tests Smokey is to have this week. Some of these thoughts cause me to cry, a lot. I just can’t believe sometimes after all this, after all this fighting to get better, it could very well be…
But we don’t know yet, that knowledge will come at the end of the week.
I am tired.
I must find some work, fast.
I don’t want to leave Smokey alone at all.
Sadi girl, our beautiful Aussie, needs to go to vet. She is 15 and showing it.
Will Mema want to come home early?
We have other people coming to visit, staying in my studio, do people not understand the pressure I feel to “entertain” and how tired I am? I don’t like a lot of people here. I love all the people, and we use to love to entertain and have people here, but now, it’s just too much…
Anyway, this is my loves, Smokey and Sadi resting. They do a lot of that now.
Trish said on June 4, 2012
What a great picture, Carla! It’s amazing the comfort our furry animals give us and our caree. Robert loves our dogs and it really seems to brighten his mood when they’re around. Sadi looks like such a sweetie. It’s so tough when things are up in the air and you’re waiting for answers. I’m hoping you are able to get some rest this week and that the week goes by quickly so you no longer have the “waiting.” Take care.
Kathy said on June 4, 2012
Ugh, waiting!
The unknown is so scary especially when it has medical attached to it.
I hope your wait goes by quickly.
Could you just tell your expectant guests that although you would enjoy their company, you’re just not up to having visitors?
Sadi sure does look comfy all laid up on the bed with Smokey.
We recently got a new dog ourselves and he likes to sit ON Hubby. Of course, he only weighs 3 lbs! Pets can be a great addition for an ailing person. I have noticed that Hubby is more alert during the day since we got Booger (Hubby named him)
Try not to let your mind wander too far in advance for worry.
Keeping you in my thoughts this week.
Denise said on June 5, 2012
Hi Carla, It’s just awful to wait. Will you let us know once you hear?
I’m so sorry about the stress over money. I will keep my fingers crossed (and my toes, too) that the work and money arrive in abundance.
And, when it’s too much, it’s okay to let others know that. A shorter visit, a postponed visit or boundaries around the visit are all options for you. When life changes, our plans can, too.
Thinking of you…
ejourneys said on June 9, 2012
Carla, that’s a beautiful photo. Sadi looks so nurturing.
I hope your money problems and bill stresses ease, and that work picks up. Waiting is tough. I hope the tests give the best possible outcomes.
I wonder if it would help to make a list of ground rules for guests: when they can come (or not), how long they can stay. Plus what they can do to see to their own needs around the house. The way I see it, visitors are there to help you at a time like this, not to be entertained by you. Your needs come first. If you have a list of what those needs are, it could be easier to see where they dovetail (or not) into what your guests want.