Oct 16 2012 in Meryl's Blog by Meryl
Today I made the decision to go for counseling to try and get a grip on all that’s been overwhelming me. Mom actually asked her therapist at the home if she knew of someone who could help me since she knew I haven’t been dealing with all this that well. I made the call and will hopefully be able to see the therapist this Saturday.
Mom has been doing much better but emotionally I am a mess. I can’t sleep and I cry all the time. This bout of depression scares me. I don’t like feeling helpless or like I am a victim. The part that scared me was that I always like to go out and dance to help myself get out of my head and relieve my stress. This past Saturday I had no desire to go anywhere and stayed home and cried myself to sleep. I feel like I am withdrawing from everything and if I can’t help myself, there is no way I can help mom.
Between my mom’s health and some other things that have happened this past year, I think it’s time to get this out so I can handle things better.I am hoping that this is the answer and I can get a better outlook on things.