This is something that I tend to do too much. I tend to expect things, and I suppose unrealistically at times. I will expect from myself, my friends, my family, outcomes of situations. More times than not I’m disappointed by these expectations. I do find myself consciously telling myself not to expect things from people and situations.
I was disappointed at the support group meeting last week because I expected a different outcome. G-J had given me a copy of a checklist of symptoms that she uses with her husband. I used the shell of this to make one to use with Nicole. I used it when I took Nicole to see her specialist in November. He loved it and thought it was awesome (I didn’t expect this). I didn’t expect to see a correlation between Nicole’s nausea and her taking tylenol/codeine either. I thought that I would make copies of it and let people in the support group have it. I stood and spoke about it and quickly explained it. I was disappointed that nobody wanted one. I remember thinking when the doctor told me I should submit it to PHA that it wasn’t “good enough” and it would be stupid to think it would be. I thought it was good enough to share with the support group and then nobody was interested. I was disappointed. I shook off the disappointment and thought heck at least I have a years worth of copies of the checklist. I will always be honored by the compliment from the doctor. I am grateful to G-J for sharing this with me as the sheet allows me to see if Nicole’s symptoms are happening on a regular basis (easier than her daily sheet) and try to figure out why they are happening.
I have found if I don’t expect a certain outcome from a person or a situation that I am not disappointed.