Mutterings and Mayhem
Mar 8 2013 in Caring for Spouses by Pegi
Storm (Photo credit: Moyan_Brenn)
I’m sitting and staring at a white page. Days, weeks, and months are passing us by. My husband used to always say “good things happen to good people.” I used to agree.
Now, not so much. Hubby could not have a kinder heart or more generous spirit. He’s mending from the latest infections hospitalization. Was miserable for two weeks with the oral antibiotics. It was cold here, and that hurts his bones. He sat in his wheelchair wrapped in an afghan, barely able to eat. All in all, he’s been physically drained.
In the midst of the squalor, we are still getting excuses from the company who have yet to finish our house. Still no patio, carport and sheds. He is really losing patience. I try to intercept whenever possible to keep him calm. But obviously he has noticed we have a POD in our driveway! This gets him all worked up. So now we have him physically and mentally distraught.
We are simple folk. We don’t ask for or expect a lot. Each other, our house in some semblance of order, family and friends; that’s pretty much it and we’re good to go. At some point in time this insanity has got to stop! It’s exhausting and I’m beginning to bore myself. That’s why I haven’t been around as frequently as I’d like. I think I used to be fun, can’t quite remember. Sorry for the whining, had to get it out. Bless all of you and your carees.
Tomorrow will be better…
Denise said on March 8, 2013
Oohhh, Pegi, I miss you!! I miss your headlines for your blog posts which are always so good!!
We often don’t have answers (and I soooo wish we did have answers for these difficult times) but we always have time to listen and love you.
Come and sit with us, regardless of whether or not it’s another bad day. I’m never bored with your company. I worry when you’re not next to me.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
Jane said on March 8, 2013
Hi Pegi:
I’m so sorry that you don’t believe that good things happen to good people anymore. I know how hard that is to believe that sometimes when we have battle after battle heaped on us.
Please don’t feel that you can’t come here because you are not fun… that is not required.
We all need to say… tomorrow will be a better day!
Hugs:o)
Jane ~ mom to Nicole 18 yo
VSD: ventricular septal defect
PFO: patent fotant orale
ES: eisenmengers syndrome
PAH: pulmonary arterial hypertension
BHJS: benign hypermobility joint syndrome
“You’re braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.”
ejourneys said on March 8, 2013
Pegi, please don’t let the fear of being boring, or whiny, or not fun stop you from coming here and venting. If I ever let that stop me, I’d go more than a little nuts. One of the things I treasure about this place is that I can let it all hang out.
Winter sucks when it gets in your bones, even a southern winter. That makes the disarray all the more upsetting, especially when so-called “professionals” keep dragging their feet. It’s bad enough when one is healthy and wanting so dearly to have things settled after such a long wait. And it’s hard trying to keep it together for two.
Spring is coming. Keep hanging on. Please vent when you need to; it helps. We’re here for you. (((Hugs)))
Pegi said on March 11, 2013
Thanks, again to all of you. Your encouragement and understanding have helped me through many a day. I shutter to think that we are coming up on the first annivesary of the syrinx spinal surgery. THere I go thinking again! Bless you all, and a better tomorrow for everyone.