A New Day :-)
Today is a new day, and I am so thankful for the possibilities that exist! Some days I struggle with the caregiver role, even though I couldn’t live with myself if I didn’t “do what I can.” Today especially I want to give thanks for what I hope is a breakthrough.
Last night I spoke with my siblings and nephew, who I provide care for, and the conversations had nothing to do with things that they needed. I did ask if they needed anything, and they relayed that they did not. We are planning a get-together for Mother’s Day – celebrating birthdays as well on Sunday. We have not gotten together as a whole in more than two years. It is not because we are not close – we are – in distance (relatively) and in heart. My brother a lot of times will duck out of plans because of his anxiety and mental illnesses, and my sister is often hard to locate because she doesn’t have a steady home and often lives a life of risk. Having talked to all of them last night–and everyone seeming to feel comfortable with getting together this weekend–finds me elated, though I am careful not to get my hopes too high. The thought of the possibility of good things to come is refreshing.
Another breakthrough that I feel I am reaching is within my own life – my health. I am beginning to see some really great positive changes in my kidney levels and this is something that I have not seen – ever. I am beginning to see how the possibilities of brighter things are truly affecting me – my attitude, my health, and my outlook for the future.
I am really thankful! And I’m finding that the more thankful I am, the brighter things really are, even in the hard times.