I Didn’t Shave My Legs for This
Yesterday, while I was getting ready to take Papa to his appointment, Deana Carter’s “Did I shave for this?” popped into my head. Even though my thoughts hardly relate to this song, I wondered, At what point did I let myself go?
I only wear makeup, do my hair and wear nice cloths when going to appointments with my grandparents. I know first impressions are a must so I do my best to look presentable for my grandparents; I don’t want to embarrass them or myself. But grocery shopping, running errands, little outings with my family–I don’t put forth any effort to look appealing. Do you all feel the same? Or, have I just got that lazy? I don’t think of myself as lazy but I just think that extra hour of “dolling myself up” could go toward something else that’s more useful.
Before taking on this caregiver role, I took the time to look nice. Even if I didn’t have anywhere to go, I’d at least straighten my hair or put on some eyeliner. I’ve tended to avoid mirrors, even windows. Even time I get a glimpse of myself I look as if I’ve aged ten years, I have bags under my eyes, my hair is nappy. I just look like an old, frumpy housewife that has ten children. I’m only 27 but I feel much older.
So, yeah, I didn’t shave my legs for this, that or another. I simply have let my young self go because I’m more focused on my carees, my son, my fiance, all the chores, shopping, errands and everything else in-between. I just don’t have the umph to put forth the effort.
Have you all gone through the same thing? Have you pulled yourself out of the funk? If so, how?
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