What Have I Done?
Seclusion from the blog. Seclusion from caregiving groups.
I’ve separated myself to think, ponder, to pray. I may have to live with it but I don’t always want to think about it so I am giving it the cold shoulder. The silent treatment.
For now, this seems to be my self defense for protecting my minds peace as I sort through things. Yet even though I’m ignoring all things lewy, my mind is always churning about ways to make things easier for Hubby. I don’t think that can be classified as denial when it’s at the front of my thoughts all the time.
One of the big issues Hubby has had for quite a while has been chronic back pain.
Poor guys complains all the time. Those compression fractures he suffered a few months back didn’t help things either and we have tried to find ways to alleviate the pain. At the least I would like to find a way to cap it to a certain level since it seems impossible to be rid of completely.
The, what feels like, never ending complaining finally weighed heavily enough on me that I vowed to do whatever we could at any speed we needed to, to get rid of Hubby’s pain.
I made an appointment with Hubby’s primary care physician even though we weren’t scheduled. The VA schedules everything and we are supposed to sit and wait. I chose to jump track. At this appointment we again discussed Hubby’s pain and chose to take a more aggressive approach caring for it. In the past I have always dragged my feet with anything new for fear of side effects worsening lewy. I suppose I realize that lewy is going to stay its course no matter what we do or how fast or slow we do it. Still, in the back of my mind I ask, “Am I doing the right thing?”
Another avenue for relief was a chiropractor. In the past Hubby has seen a chiropractor and feeling certain that his back had healed enough I made another appointment for an adjustment for Hubby. I guess you could say I am trying to adjust his attitude.
If you ask Hubby he would probably tell you I need mine adjusted too. :0
After the intake which included the info about his recent falls and compression fractures and the lesson on Lewy Body–What? You thought I wouldn’t?–the plan of action was neck x-rays and start there first. I got to see the x-ray and it was such a surprise to me when I noticed Hubby had five, yes, FIVE! healed compression fractures in his neck
2 Timothy 1:7 “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.”
Hubby decided he wanted a steak for supper. I’m not going to complain about that so we stopped at Chili’s.
Sure enough they prepared an excellent ribeye. So tender and juicy! mmmm
I scarf mine down like I’ll never eat again and Hubby eats his mashed potatoes.
Seriously, there’s a steak sitting there, I even cut it up for him.
I ask if his steak is good, he says “Very”, we brag to the waiter and manager.
The bill comes, $16 each! I gulp and pay it, ask for a to go box for Hubby.
We get home and he asks me if I want the steak. I think about it but decline.
Willpower, go me!
The next thing I know, he’s feeding a $16 steak to the DOGS!!!!!
At least he asked me first. ROFLOL!!!!
On another occasion Hubby asked me “Who do you work for?”
I answered, I don’t work for anyone.
He then asks “How do you make it?”
Apparently my answer of “Honey, I’m married to you” was hilarious because he busted out laughing! LOL!
And again, In an effort to figure out who I am, Hubby just made me show proof of identification from the V.A. My drivers license wasn’t good enough for him. Good thing I had my medical card. o_O
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