Always Moving Forward
Tomorrow is Smokey’s MRI of his throat and his thoracic back area. Every time we head down to Charleston for tests I always have a positive attitude just knowing we are going to get great news and that healing is taking place.
Every time we have been down there, the results are never what we hope for or expect. But I will NOT give up believing our miracle is coming and Smokey’s healing is taking place. I am believing that when we go back on the following Thursday to see one of the doctors, he is going to have amazingly great news for us!
I have been keeping busy getting things together for a yard sale as well as researching and putting together information to sell some more valuable items on Craigslist of Ebay. I have to admit, once we hit 3 o’clock in the afternoon, I am pretty spent and have to rest, then my night time duties begin and I have little to no time to dedicate to the work it takes to put it all together.
I have some other things that people have shown some interest in, they are actually some 100-year-old cobblestones that I hand dug myself a year before Smokey got sick. I had all intention to use them for a beautiful patio I can still see in my mind. But God is showing me many things during these times to trials, one of the most important ones is that there is nothing on this earth more important than Him and everything belongs to Him. It’s all on loan and we are merely stewards. So letting go is becoming much easier for me.
I am also still working on putting together the book to enter the Guideposts contest. As I may have mentioned before, I do not have time to meet all their guidelines, because of the way I put this devotional together, but I am sending it in anyway, with a cover letter, explaining my circumstance and hoping they will at least give it a look. If they feel I have anything, anything at all to offer, or a chance to become a finalist, I could always change whatever they need me to change. I just do not have the time at this moment.
Then, I have had something else on my mind for a while. A neighbor, who is a wonderful help to me, had told me that he had to create a job for himself when the recession started. He has done very, very well for himself. So that got me thinking. They always say you do your best when you do what you love. Well, I do love being an artist, but I have been doing that for a living for so long that I have to give the Lord some time to renew my passion.
Something else I have loved to do since 1999, is read, learn, talk write about our Lord. I love to encourage others and help them see that I have been there, done that, not much I haven’t crossed the line in and I am able to connect with many folks. I have been told many times that I either write and speak well when it come to the subject of our Lord. I love Him so much and adore sharing Him with anyone who will give me an ear.
So I am working, or maybe I should say I am thinking about it, on creating a position in the medical field, to help patients be encouraged and have hope. Yes, I know there are Chaplains on staff at hospitals. And no I do not have a degree as I had to withdraw from school recently because it was just too much for me to handle right now. I don’t want to take the Chaplains jobs, and I am not trying to be a preacher by any means! But I would like to research and see how I could create a position with the doctors themselves, not the hospitals, or facilities, to just spend a few moments with a patient before they see their doctor. Okay, I know, many would say that is something you volunteer to do. Believe me, I would love too! More than anything. But I am really trying to figure out how to afford to keep going and take care of those I love!
I am sure there is going to be a lot of opposition, but why not check it out. We serve a mighty big God! He can do anything, and if it isn’t meant to be, I suppose I find that out pretty quick.
I gotta do something. Write, talk, meet with others, something. I gotta do something! I have been through so much since my childhood, I just know I have so much to share and help others know there is hope, and there is a God that will never leave or forsake us. Things may not look the way we want them to look, our healing may not be happening the way we want it too, but you have to make a choice! I choose God, no questions! And with Him I will be guiding in whatever directions He wants my steps to take.
Please pray for amazing, wonder filled, super natural results on tomorrows tests.
We continue to pray for all of the Caregiving family!
Will all our love,