My mom, my younger sister and I came back together from the PCP’s office yesterday. The PCP gave instructions about how to start hospice ASAP. She already had received the necessary papers and had started the process rolling, thank goodness. My mom will die most probably within six months.
Hospice comes today at 11:30 a.m. My sister will be there to talk to them too. I am glad about this. I don’t want to be alone. An RN will come. I believe I shall ask our CNA to stay on at the house for longer hours and more days. Maybe Monday through Friday or more. We’ll see. I am so glad we have found her ahead of time. Mom likes her and so do I.
Mom has become a fragile shell of a woman from her vibrant lucid self.
But so far she still knows me. Se still says she loves me. I say it to her and she still repeats it to me. That means a lot. She didn’t know my younger sister last night.
Mom and I are so tired; the night before was a long one. We awoke at 2 a.m. and Mom was raring to go. I was exhausted. It caught up to us.
How do you lose your best friend? Your beloved companion? Your mom? To death? I think my sisters have distanced themselves from it. They don’t dwell on it; they live in denial. And my younger sister won’t have to come visit anymore. She will be glad about that. My older sister and I have gotten closer. A whole lot closer. It is very nice. My younger sister and I have pulled away from each other upon her part.
My younger sister says it is best that Mom passes away. That’s true but she is just not thinking about it. She is not facing it. She is engrossing herself in her job and family. Letting go of me and Mom. That’s okay. She needs to that in order to handle Mom’s death.
I need help. I need to get it too and I promised myself I would. First thing hospice later today and then calling the home care agency to see if our CNA wants more hours. We need her, Mom and me. Longer days and more of them. And, of course, hospice and what they offer today.
Pray for Mom and me!
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