“Oh my word, what am I doing here?”
I think that thought once too often it seems, perhaps more when I’m worried or stressed. Or maybe lost (physically, emotionally or spiritually). I’ve been going through a lot of back and forth lately with a certain one for which I care. Sometimes, heck a lot of the times, things are so overwhelming for both of us it’s truly crazy-ville. To calm myself, I clam up and think….and think…and think some more. Deep breaths help during this thinking time. It’s downtime and perhaps escape time. Psychologists might call this a “coping technique”. Truly, it’s a way to deal with the everyday, especially when the day is going pretty sucky (or even the week…month…ugh). Personally, reading and games help me through the suck-fest, both are ways of slowing down/escaping. Talking would probably help more, but sometimes I find it easier to center myself first before leaning onto others. But, eventually, we all have to come out of our turtle shells, even if for a short while. And, say “Look! Here I am!”
In other news, as I said in my activity stream recently, I drank the kool-aid in my escapism this week. (Thanks, Denise…I think. ;P LOL) It took me maybe 10 games to victory!
Savoring in that small feat for five seconds, while I can.
What’s next? What do you think?
Oh, and I blogged at “my place” as well tonight…it’s what led me to post here. Go see.Related