11-15-10 Time to finish this blog post! I have been at this one since August! Have I come to a conclusion, no…do I have a plan set up for replacing all the time and activities of caring for mom when she was here, no….has these past months been therapeutic in anyway, no. So, the purpose of this post? Apparently it has none, or maybe this is just the result of all the thoughts, and non-moments and ideas that take place when a caregiver no longer is? I just don’t want to struggle with this blog anymore to make it be the perfect blog, to have all the answers to what now. So, if you will all forgive this very un-proper blog… I will conclude and post it today!
Oh yes, today is Monday, 9:07…Mom passed on Monday, August 16 at approximately 9:15….13 weeks ago, don’t like Mondays……
Sunday at Home…..9-12-10
Isolation and loneliness just don’t seem to get eradicated; they even intensify in some instances, once your caree is gone. There is even a greater sense of being abandoned. I talked about on my radio show how I didn’t belong anywhere as a caregiver before I got involved with caregiving.com. Now that I am no longer a caregiver that sense of not belonging is again plaguing me. If I am not able to leave the house and go somewhere, which is most days, then I am alone, all day and often in the evenings. Alone in mom’s house with memories of mom all around. Tomorrow it will be 4 weeks since mom passed.