Hi all, I hope this finds everyone and their families well. I had a little much needed time to myself and figured I would check in. Mom is still in the rehab since her fall over a  month ago. She seems to be in good spirits. I don’t get to see her except on the weekends since I am very [...]

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Life has a funny way of throwing everything at you at the same time and I feel like I have to be on all bases and catching every ball. Last week I went to see Mom for the first time in the rehab. She looked calm and relaxed and for once I felt less guilty about the [...]

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Mom was moved today from the hospital to the rehab which will now become her permanent residence. I have been trying to be so strong for her but it is so hard to do. My mom was always outgoing and never home. Her health over the years has made her not go outside and withdraw [...]

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I know I haven’t been on much lately as this is my busy season at work. I am on overload with working six days a week and late nights plus taking care of mom and trying to find some time for myself to breathe in between. Please know that even though I haven’t posted, I [...]

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Today I decided to end my relationship with my boyfriend after two years. It is so hard to take care of me and my mom right now that the thought of taking care of him has just been so overwhelming. I have been through so much in the past two years between Mom’s health and [...]

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How do you convince someone to get a hearing aid when they are in denial? My mother’s hearing has been getting dramatically worse and it is starting to frustrate me. I have to repeat myself so many times, even when I stand in front of her and she is looking at me talking that I [...]

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This week has been incredibly busy for me. After my talk with Mom last week about making changes, things have been a lot better. Her attitude has been perkier and she looks more like herself. I am hoping  she continues to focus on the positive and not on the negative. Work has been increasingly busy [...]

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Mom has been very upset lately about all the talk about assisted living or a nursing home which was to be expected.  Last night we had several conversations with her about different things and she had her wits about her which was great. Not once did she seem confused or out of it. I decided to [...]

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Today I felt more like myself. It’s been awhile since I felt like that. I was able to do what I wanted or needed to do and not feel stressed out. I even had the chance to take a nap. At certain points it felt weird having time to myself  since I am so used to [...]

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Today is a brand new year filled with new beginnings. I have never been happier that 2010 is over.  2010 was not a great year as I spent most of it with my mom in the hospital or a rehab. I am hoping that 2011 is a better year. Last night Mom stayed up with [...]

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Mom felt better this morning after sleeping the night. Part of the battle is watching Mom come home after dialysis and seeing a totally different person. She is already a different person and the hardship is watching her be somewhat lethargic which is not easy to do. I have to keep a brave face when I [...]

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The other night I had a talk with Mom about the assisted living/rehab situation. I cried the whole time I spoke to her wishing my mom would go back to the way she was so it would be so much easier to deal with and not have to make this decision. My brother was supposed [...]

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The past few days have been very hard. Christmas Eve I had the talk with Mom that if she didn’t want her aide to come Christmas Day that she would have to be a little more independent which she was in agreement with. Ever since Christmas Day, I have been running around like crazy. Today [...]

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Today I went to see a friend who lost her sister a few months ago. I thought to myself, how can I feel the way I do when so many others are suffering from a loss. Sometimes I feel selfish that I have no right to feel the way I do with my mom. She [...]

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The other day when I came home from work, mom mentioned that she was considering having her procedure reversed.  This is something I have been waiting for since she had the procedure done earlier this year. If mom has this done it means that I will be able to get her into an assisted living which [...]

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Friday night I decided to have a heart to heart talk with Mom. Since our argument this week about mentioning a nursing home, I thought it was time to take a different approach. I explained to Mom that I didn’t think her coming home was the best idea since all she does is sleep and go to [...]

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For the past few days I have been so nervous with my upcoming tests that I haven’t slept well at all. The pressure at home is starting to get overwhelming and my mom seems to need more from me. I find myself getting very short with her which I know I shouldn’t but it’s so [...]

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This morning I was supposed to go for the monitor as part of my stress test. I woke up very early and was at my appointment a 1/2 hour early. By the time I was called, the nurse told me the monitor had not been brought back yet from the patient before and they had [...]

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Mom usually walks with the walker when the ambulette takes her home from dialysis. The walker has the seat on it.  Tonight when I looked out the window she was being wheeled in as if she was in a wheelchair. It really freaked me out.  The driver asked me to sign a sheet listing her [...]

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I usually am very much into the holiday spirit every year. I love it when Christmas and Hanukkah fall out at the same time so I can put the Christmas tree and the Menorah in the window. I love decorating. As a child we never had anything and I used to watch all the kids get presents and [...]

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Since I found out I have health issues now, I find it harder to concentrate on my mother’s condition and find myself getting angry again. This whole week I haven’t felt well emotionally or physically but I have no choice to take care of Mom when I come home from work. Mom has been trying [...]

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I have been a nervous wreck the past few days wondering whether I would be out of commission and not be able to care for my mom. The doctor I went to Monday really did a number on me and freaked me out. Today I went for a 2nd opinion and I really liked the [...]

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