A New Way of Listening

Lisa

A New Way of Listening

Lisa
black-1127416_640I know this may sound strange to some but lately I've developed (and continuing to develop) a new way of listening.

Listening in the night, in the quiet, not for abnormal breathing sounds but FOR breathing sounds. Listening in the daytime for anything different.

I haven't blogged in quite a while, and things seem to have changed quite a bit. Dad's health seems to be deteriorating somewhat. Overall he's still good, but I worry as weak as he is now at times about pneumonia. I'm sure I'm not the only one who has had this worry. Oh and he has the rattle. That's why I'm constantly listening. I listen with my door open while I'm reading in bed, I listen and check on him on my way to and from the bathroom late at night, I listen all the time. I know I'm supposed to pay attention but this is grating on my nerves.

On top of that, I have the dreaded math class that I'm re-taking once again online. It's a bear but my teacher seems to be understanding and doesn't mind me asking a lot of questions, which I do. I have a lot on my mind currently about what to do about certain things dealing with everything from Dad's care to the weather forecast to what to have for dinner.

Do you ever feel like there's a storm in your brain? I do, at least now I do. I'm looking forward to tomorrow beginning another month and the activities we have planned here on the website. Hopefully it will be a distraction in a good way with all I have going on.

Any advice and tips would be greatly appreciated if you've ever been in my shoes. You all are the best!

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Denise

Hi Lisa -- I am so glad you blogged. This new of listening is so stressful. You're straining to hear what you hope to continue hearing while worrying what will happen when you no longer hear it.\r\n\r\nThis article about end of life may be helpful: http://kokuamau.org/resources/last-stages-life The article has great tips for you to ensure you and your dad are comfortable.\r\n\r\nIf you haven't already called, this would be a good time to call the VA Caregiver Support Hotline. I can resend the number if you need.\r\n\r\nI would also call the funeral home just so you are aware of what to do when your dad passes. \r\n\r\nPlease keep us posted.

Jean

Hi Lisa, Reading you post brought back memories of the listening, and the watching to see if there was any movement of the blanket rising and falling... I felt like I was on a death watch for so long, and it was years. I often told myself, the end will come, it's enviable. No matter how much watching and listening, I couldn't control the end. \r\n\r\nI also had a horrible time with concentration and memory--both things that stress can affect. My best advise to you is if you haven't had a thourough physical and blood work done recently it might be worth it. My Vitamin D and thyroid levels were extremely low... which is kind of common for post menopausal women. getting those under control did help my concentration a lot. \r\n\r\nOther than that, I think you are on right tract, coming here, connecting, sharing, blogging, venting...

Elphaba

I feel ya. My mother is on outpatient hospice, with nurses and LNAs and so on coming and going a few times a week. She can't sleep in her bed any more because of \"the rattle\". She can't lie down and has been sleeping in a recliner, which, thank goodness, is as comfortable as the bed, and has the bonus of keeping her feet elevated. Every good day is followed by several not-good days, and she chafes at the restrictions her failing health has put on her activity levels. Even with COPD, she was quite active up until about 7 years ago, when she began portable O2. It's been continuously - slowly, but continuously - downhill since then.