Behind

Denise

Behind

Denise
boat-681888_640I feel I am behind.

I'm not behind by five minutes as if I'm running to catch a train which leaves on time. I'm not behind by a day in returning phone calls or following up on commitments. I'm not behind by a week in cleaning the house, my car, the refrigerator.

I feel like I'm behind by a lifetime. I'm behind in saving for retirement. I'm behind in reaching my career goals. I'm behind in achieving my life's dreams.

Caregiving can feel like it steals your life.

How do I catch up?

I don't catch up by rushing or speeding or charging. I don't catch up by worrying about past decisions, fretting about past actions, obsessing about past setbacks.

I get back on the time table by just starting where I am. And, when I look at where I am, I see I'm in the perfect position.

Now is the perfect time to focus on what I have right now. And, in this moment, in my present, I have resources, ideas, possibilities, support, initiative and chutzpah.

I haven't lost a lifetime. I've gained opportunities of a lifetime just waiting for me to act.