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Meryl

Checking In

Meryl
Check_markHi all. Today I received an email from Denise telling me she was thinking about me.  I felt embarrassed that I have not been on here for quite some time but I needed to address some things on my own.  I couldn't handle seeing the pain and suffering that some were going through as I had a hard time handling my own.

I have been going for counseling now for quite some time.  It has been a very good experience for me as I was able to luck out and find a great therapist to help me deal with certain things.  Having to deal with Mom's issues on my own is not easy and going through certain traumatic events last year only compounded the situation. My brother still has not kicked in to help with anything but I am learning that "it is what it is" is a very valuable statement. Mom has been doing much better. She has had her good days and bad days like everyone else but she looks wonderful!

Through counseling I have learned to do things differently. I can't run like I used to anymore. I go to see mom once a week now and spend time with her on the weekends. She knows that if she needs me I will be there for her like I always have been but I also need to take care of me which I don't do but I am taking baby steps to learn not to feel guilty about doing that. The constant running back and forth had been taking its toll.

Again, I am sorry that I haven't been here.

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Denise

Hi Meryl--We all understand! I'm glad you took the time you need. We want you to feel better and know that, to feel better, you have to focus on yourself.\r\n\r\nI'm so glad your mom is doing well. \r\n\r\nAnd, the good thing about us is that we're always here. :) Whenever feels right for you, come on back and give us updates.

ejourneys

Hi, Meryl -- I understand that need to cocoon and take a breather. I keep a \"friends only\" blog that I was away from for about 3 months -- got the message that someone there was concerned about me, so I popped back in to reassure and do some catch-up.\r\n\r\nThank you for this update. I am so glad that your mom is doing better and that the counseling is going well -- and that you're taking care of yourself. We are here, but the important thing is to do what you need. I've been in that space, too.