Double Dementia Paradox

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Double Dementia Paradox

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Deutsch: Bleuler, Eugen: Dementia praecox oder... Deutsch: Bleuler, Eugen: Dementia praecox oder Gruppe der Schizophrenien. Leipzig und Wien: F. Deuticke 1911, 420 Seiten. Erstdruck. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)


Anyone read Dutch?  Looks like dementia has been a paradox since at least 1911. No wonder I'm having a hard time with both parents struggling with this nasty disease.

Today Mom woke up drenched in pee and Dad had her get dressed to go out before having a shower.  He wanted to take her out, but the home health worker was coming in about five minutes.  Why couldn't he wait?  I asked for a little cash and feel like I'm abusing Dad, but I'm here, I'm loving them, I'm not leaving Mom alone, I'm encouraging Mom to bathe, and I'm calling social workers, asking for help even though I'm scared.

As soon as my father gave me twenty bucks he yelled at me and said, "Aren't you looking for a job?"  Uh, yes Dad.  At that point I imploded and thought, "I'm here," etc. "I'm dealing with divorce and disability claims and getting up every day despite depression. Isn't that enough?"  Then I couldn't really enjoy the Market.

I wonder why our parents affect us so viscerally, no matter our age or why my father seems to like other people more than me or my Mom, why he seems to give so unconditionally to others and not to his family.  I really need my virtual cheering squad more than ever right now in dealing with this double dementia paradox.  I feel like I'm in the self-checkout lane at Safeway, hearing that voice that says, "Unexpected item left, please check ... Unexpected item left, please check ... Unexpected item left, please check ..."

Always, il


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Ana I'm so very happy you find support in me . . I think you know how so very much that means to me . . . I want to send you a friend request because yes we do resonate. Yes, the ill or the fathers that don't know how to show love do it strange ways. My Dad handed me 20 bucks and said are you looking for a job???? That hurt so much, Ana. I want his validation and I know I won't get it but I keep beating myself up by seeking it . . . you give so much I don't think you realize. . . . are you able to read the blogs I've written? www.caregiving.com/author/ildestino1.\r\n\r\nYou take care!\r\n(((hugs))))\r\nil

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I say Richard, read my next blog after Shelter and the next one with the tiger pic . . . can't remember what I said but you've hit the nail on the head and I hope you don't mind me quoting you! I say thank you for the validation that I'm working 5 jobs . .even though they don't pay and I hope all the positive feedback here will lead to monetary pay in a publish of my blogs ( oooooh that was hard to type!\r\nAlways,\r\nil