Overload. Dementia x 2. "No=Guilt." Divorce Finalizing. Depression (me). Don't want to see my ex. Miss my birds. Birds passed away last year. Guilt. Anniversaries.
Pensive. Relax. Breathe.
Relax and Breathe. Really???
I hide. I hide in computer room. I hide at Peet's. I hide in "my room."
Addendum to "Did I Eat That?"
@ildestino1: Dad is putting meds out in their pill boxes and doesn't know what he is taking, let alone what Mom is taking. Percocet is in Mom's side drawer accessible to her not in a lock box. When I ask Dad about medical safety and security and her dementia and the fact that she will take extra without remembering he says, Don't worry.
When I ask, "Is this your pill Dad?" (I don't have medical POA.) He says, Yes. But he doesn't know he's diabetic, let alone what he's taking. (I found out he's diabetic when I took him to the DMV for a Driver's Test and saw Diabetic on his "chart.")
I hear, "Yes, because mine is the big pill and Mom's has the long pill."
"What are they Dad?"
"Doesn't matter just put them on the table."
I know these meds need to be monitored and the doctor has put my father in charge of dispensing meds. Dad starts drinking at about one in the afternoon, he's diabetic, he has the beginnings of dementia.
Dad, I went to nursing school.
Dad I have a B.S. in Health Science.
Dad I know that Percocet combined with Seroquel can f**** with your body and kill you.
This . . . Does . . . Not . . . Make . . . Sense.
Mom is on Seroquel and multiple other Meds. Dad is on Warfarin and multiple other meds. I'm catching things like gas burners being left on. Trying to get hold of Alzheimer's Association. Can't. Get machine.
Mom takes peaches but God forbid she takes my herbs that I take at night and overdoses on something or I run out of my meds and really can't take care of anyone.
Overload. Guilt. Hiding.
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