How To Relieve A Giant Ego

Lark

How To Relieve A Giant Ego

Lark
This is not so much of a blog post as it is an explanation that will help anyone from seeing me in too bright a light. While the compulsion to let it be exists, the desire for the value of transparency and love of each of you is greater.

I am skilled at putting words together both orally and on paper. My other two skills are loving people deeply and loving God beyond measure. Outside of that, I need help. Honestly! I have 33 years sobriety from drugs and alcohol and have sat in hundreds of meetings listening, read the literature, used a sponsor and, for a long time, that environment nurtured me. It still does today. Over my life I have always known there was a God and I believed about Jesus. Still, I had quite a few years of living as if life had no value. Today I am different. Christ is a living God. As alive as you or I and , as much as is possible, I am surrendered to my life with Him. People. Since I have conscience memory I have loved people. All kinds. People are my art form. I meet people and loving them just as they are is like music to me. Not anything to get excited about because I cannot balance a checkbook, hang a picture without angst or keep a clean house.

I am saying all of this to let any reader know that I do not have original thoughts. I may use thoughts I am given in my own original way but I do not define the original thought. Recently I used the term "surrender to win" and someone made a lovely comment. That saying was taught to me through recovering alcoholics. I did not think of it and any wisdom I have related to it has come from bucking up against that concept until I surrendered and I won a new life. I use that saying all the time. I am smiling as I write this because I can see the former me backing up and running at the wall trying to do things my way.

I appreciate comments and insights and I welcome them, but when you think of me you can bet on it that I am backing up and running at some wall I am determined to beat. This community at caregiving is a deep blessing in my life and, by extension, in the life of my family. I honor you and thank each of you for sharing your journey.

 

 

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