I Don't Know Anymore

Lark

I Don't Know Anymore

Lark
Things I don't know anymore:

I don't know if I am stressed or depressed or physically sick anymore.

I don't know what my other life use to be like anymore.

I don't know how to work up a good cry anymore.

I don't know if I am o.k. or not o.k. anymore.

I don't know if I want people around me or if I want to be alone anymore.

I don't know if I have the confidence I had a year ago or if I can access it anymore.

I don't know if our monthly income will cover us anymore.

I don't know what should concern me or if I even care about what should concern me anymore.

I don't know if I could do one single thing about anything that concerns me anymore.

I don't know who to ask about what is going on with me anymore.

I don't trust other people's encouragements in saying I am doing a great job anymore.

I don't know what I don't know anymore.

I don't know if I feel like thinking about any of what I don't know anymore.

I don't know if, at this very minute, I am being dramatic or totally understating my situation anymore.

I don't know if I have grieved the death of a good friend of mine or if I have accepted that he is dead or even if I can feel grief anymore.

I don't know if I have found a state of calm acceptance or lost my sense of feeling anymore.

I don't know if I am running in place or running on autopilot or managing my life anymore.

I don't know if I believe any of the self-help book affirmations anymore.

I don't know if I believe any of what I just wrote or if it is the truth anymore.