"I Feel Some Resentment..."

steam-484572_640Last night I had a bothersome encounter in which my wife told me she was feeling some resentment that I wouldn't go see the doctor for my back. It's been bothering me for months, but because of a lack of financial solvency, I haven't seen our doctor for it. The messed up part is that if her back were injured, I'd have taken her right away and worried about how we were going to pay for it later.

She also said that she resented that I sit at work all day and don't want to do anything but sit when I get home. I don't know if she just doesn't remember the numerous times I've explained to her how exhausting it is to do basically nothing physical all day, even her having read some articles on the nature of mental fatigue.

She led into another of expression of how I have the energy to lift weights but not to go for walks which again, I have to wonder if she's just never paid attention all the other times she's brought this up, and I've explained to her that walking wears out my knee and hurts my hips and my lower back where lifting weights actually make them all feel better.

I'm sick of explaining it, though. Just plum tired of it, so I just kept mum since it does no good anyway.

Today my back doesn't hurt too much, but my wrists and elbows are killing me. I'm in chronic pain, too. I sometimes wonder if I have a mild form of Fibromyalgia myself, especially with the bizarre electrical surges I get in my scalp sometimes.

Okay, I'm done complaining.

Hang tough!

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