I Wish...


I Wish...

I wish.. I could come home after work and once in a while be asked how my day was.

I wish.. I could go out and party all night and not be worried about having to be up early the next day to take care of my mom.

I wish.. I could plan to take time off without worrying about who's going to help out at home.

I wish.. I could just pick up and go.

I wish.. I could make simple plans to go out to dinner without having to contact my sister, dad and make sure someone is going to be at home.

I wish.. my mom was healthy.

I wish.. a lot of things but most of all I hope.. someday it all goes back to the old days.

I've been meaning to write this blog since yesterday, but I became too busy. It was a rather crazy day, but mostly at home. On my way home from work I was rear ended in the expressway. There was no damage to my car; it just shook me. Once I got home though my back and neck were in pain, it was just from the impact. I thought I could just get in the house and lay for a little bit.

Well, I was wrong. The minute I walked in my mom handed me the phone; they were calling from her doctor's office to schedule an appointment for a urine analysis. My parents both don't speak English very well and she was not understanding what they were saying. My sister had gone off the bed (she works the third shift and takes care of mom during the day) and Dad was in the shower.

Once I finished setting up the appointments, Dad came upstairs and needed help logging on to a website to finish a bankruptcy program you have to do before going to court. He was no help because he didn't remember the username/password he used last time. So there I went on the phone again trying to find out what his username was.

Once he was all logged in I headed to the kitchen, washing dishes, putting food away, and making my dad's lunches for work the next day. I cleaned up the living room and by the time I was done it was 8. I then started getting my mom ready for bed, had her in bed by 8:30 p.m.

15 minutes later I was done getting ready to head to my part-time nanny job. Three weeks ago I began a nanny job, it is 3 nights a week from 9 p.m. to 12 a.m. Time varies, sometimes they will ask me to come in early or stay a little later. I enjoy it because it is time away from home and of course good extra cash that always comes in handy especially with a strict budget.

Yesterday, as Denise mentioned in a blog earlier, Chicago had a crazy storm. I unfortunately was driving on my way to babysitt when it hit the worst. Once I got in their house, they told me their elecricity went off. So there I was on the floor sitting with an 8-month-old, 4-year-old, and 7-year-old around a lamp trying to entertain them. It was stressful but kind of fun in a way.

Yesterday just made me realize, that in 24-hours I did nothing for myself and no one asked how I was doing. Maybe I should re-phrase that: Coworkers always ask, but no one in my family asked me how I was doing. I don't want to sound like I am whining I just want them to care. Hope others had a better day!