My Heart Hurts...

lookingheavenward

My Heart Hurts...

lookingheavenward
drop-of-water-166735_640Well, after over a YEAR--A YEAR--of waiting to hear back from the VA about being compensated for caregiving, we got the letter today saying we were denied.

We sent in 73 pages of proof from over 20 doctors in four states, along with letters from me, my aunt, my neighbors, and many others, current doctor's reports etc etc etc, and they still denied us! How can they do that?

She is bedridden. I do EVERYTHING!  I don't know what else I could do to be considered a caregiver! I gave up my job, my entire adult life, 14 years, everything.....how can they in one letter basically say, in their eyes, I do nothing and I have wasted the last 14 years of my life? How can they say that Mom doesn't need assistance? She fought for her country honorably, she was injured while serving, so now, when we ask for help, why do they make us wait over a year just to deny us?

Why must we fight for every single thing? Why isn't there one person on our side? Do they have no heart?

I am sorry for ranting. I have been in tears since I read the letter, my heart hurts, and I am just sad. I don't caregive for the money (none of us do!), and I don't need a piece of paper to validate what I do. I guess I am just tired of fighting. We have been fighting for over 14 years with various "entities," I guess you could call them. We have to fight doctors and nurses and staff and workers comp and the VA and on and on the list grows. I just don't know.

I don't know why I am so emotional over this particular let down, why this letter brought me to tears. Regardless of what this letter said, I know that God is with us, He is our provider and protector. He is on our side. I will continue to comfort myself with that fact.

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