Nearing the End

cowislandmom

Nearing the End

cowislandmom
My mom, who has been in hospice in my home for the past eight months with a heart condition, has gone downhill rapidly in the past few days.

I don't think we have more than a few days left with her. Due to her stroke 11 years ago, she hasn't been able to talk much for a long time, and now she can barely say a whispered "yes" or "no", and is taking only a few sips of liquid a day, and is really heavily medicated for pain.

I've been saying goodbye to the mom I knew growing up for so long, but this is still hard. I know she's ready to go, and has been since my dad passed 10 months ago, if not before. But watching it happen, despite the amazing support we have from the hospice folks, is really draining.

Yesterday we had a visit from the hospice chaplain, whom my mom has gotten to know and really likes; he's been wonderful with her. After visiting with her, he said something to me like "you're doing a good job", and I must have looked at him like I wasn't sure, because he took my hands and said it again. It meant a lot, I almost burst into tears. I guess I haven't really believed that, up till now.