Not a Good Monday

Janet

Not a Good Monday

Janet
Carlsbad_caverns_national_park_sunsetI try to be a good wife, daughter and Mom and a sister and an aunt but sometime I fail and today I felt I failed as a wife and a daughter and a mom.

First thing this morning I get a Facebook message from my son saying we have to figure how to stop the bug bites on his daughter's legs. She has only started getting them here in the past two weeks. Our house is sprayed monthly and no one else gets bugs bites but her. So I give up on trying to figure out the two of them. So my day started terrible. Then to add to everything my mom's caregiver got a better job so now we are having a different caregiver. My mom doesn't want to have a caregiver, she feel she is just being babysitting. So the war starts, between me starting long term insurance until May and "I am wanting to spend her money on her care and waste her money. And that no one wants her so she would rather die now because no one wants her."

I feel like I am a only sibling right now. My three brothers are useless and could care less what going is on. I have already took two of my anxiety pills and probably will take more before the evening is over. If I dropped the caregiver, I may just sign my divorce papers right now cause my life will be over. My husband is the best and he does everything, but I think will take him over the top.

All I can think is why me? My brothers hardly visits but I still get beat up because I want Mom to be safe. I feel like I am on the lonely island right now. I talked to one of my friends and of course I cried through our whole conversation and I know I upset her.

I guess I have to make up my mind. My life was good for the past two months but now back to staying home all the time. I have given up time with my sister-in-law and my other friends so this shouldn't be a big deal.

I just right now feeling that I (really mean my husband and I) shouldn't have to do this alone.

Everyone have a great week!!!

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Hussy

I'm sorry your day did not go well. I hear your anxiety and frustration. I think you are doing the best you can do -- and that's all you can do. I agree with LilMagill -- keeping the caregiver is key. And be sure to feed your soul -- make time for yourself with your husband and your friends. Don't become isolated. \r\n\r\nAs for the bugs, I am assuming you mean mosquitoes. A few mosquito bites is not the end of the world. Maybe your son should put insect repellent on your granddaughter, have her wear long sleeves and pants, just stay inside, or have you visit them until mosquito season is over. There are work arounds. And by the way, mosquitoes really love some people and not others. According to Jerry Butler, a professor at the University of Florida, one in 10 people is highly attractive to mosquitoes. I'm one of those ten percenters and maybe your granddaughter is too. My husband and I can be sitting on the porch and I will get bit multiple times whereas he will not be bitten at all.\r\n\r\nI hope today was a better day for you.

LilMagill

I am so sorry you had such a bad day. It is hard to be all things to all people, and even when you do your best, it's impossible to make everyone happy. Making everyone happy is not a good goal, is it? I'm thinking about that for myself right now. I tend to consider the happiness of my family members my responsibility and feel like a failure when someone else is sad or angry or upset for any reason. But it's hopeless - people are going to feel what they feel. We just have to do our best and leave it at that. I'm rereading your post and thinking, whatever you do, hang on to the caregiver!