Rest Lockout (Chasing Tigers Part Two)

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Rest Lockout (Chasing Tigers Part Two)

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Baby Panda Bear Cub - San Diego Zoo Baby Panda Bear Cub - San Diego Zoo (Photo credit: fortherock)


"Scary places begin to feel less so as we begin to explore them." (My counseling session on July 12, 2013). Today I woke up to such a welcoming response to Double Dementia Paradox (@kreisler ), came home to the same in response  to Shelter (@worriedwife ). The latter was post counseling.

Now I'm again writing away when my eyes and body say, Please rest! Seems to me that dementia sets the stage for what I equivocate to a 'lockout,' comparable to a computer freeze. I lay down and then start thinking about the friends I've made here and how they are doing or the title of the next blog or what I'll be cooking for dinner or when my coffee time is or calling the state regarding back taxes or the fact that my ex probably hasn't paid his share and how can I protect myself. Anyone out of breathe yet because I am. My mind is still racing. My 'rest lockout' continues.

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@oscargal, yes I do Yoga and Savasana and Tai Chi and they work! But I can't seem to allow myself to rest. To be at peace. To step back and admire Chasing the Tigers. To welcome my Shelter ( away from the computer). To Hide in peace. To do what I've said to others, that I love you guys. Yes we all love and wish the best for each other. So I have a request: I want to go into The City tomorrow and pick up my medicine and go to the Museum and see Monet.Since I'm not quite at the point to give myself permission to enjoy this I'm reaching out for help to 'restart'  my brain to rest without lockout.

Always,

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