Rough Days

christine

Rough Days

christine
coast-984103_640Today is a pain-filled day. My back feels broken. I didn't do much either.

I ate a sub which probably is the culprit, the lettuce and diverticulitis problems. I never know if it's straining to go and the back or if it's more. I have a multitude of problems, I need to get a colonoscopy. I had a nasty bout of diverticulitis in the early fall. I need to be more careful what I eat so I don't have pain like last night or before that. I have a refill of antibiotics luckily. The doctor knows the situation with Mom and not being able to go places normally.

I have gained weight and that weight is NOT doing me any good on the belly/abdomen either; it pulls on back and colon. I don't want Mom's issues with a stoma and 79 days in hospital and such. I have a knawning in my gut too probably an ulcer.  I have meds Prevacid but have not taken yet.  Always worried about side effects because I have terrible allergies/asthma and anaphalix issues so anything new is iffy with me. I am doing Maalox type stuff though.

Mom's always had colon issues. A big popcorn and nuts fan, back in the 90s she had to have surgery for a colon fistula, then not long after again, she swore off both until last November and then this festered up. She had a rectal vaginal fistula for a year we didn't know, she had vaginitis from taking cancer medication and somehow she was missed along the way with that problem. Then of course it blew up.

I'm still tired from the last year of hospitals and ICU and such.  This caregiving era for me has really wiped me out. The sister and dad eras were bad but not this bad maybe because I was healthier.