Sad Day

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Sad Day

lookingheavenward
hippo-89223_640Well, today was supposed to be my first vacation day in over five years. I didn't know how excited I was!

I had all of my notes to share with the caregiver, I had braided my hair in a new style, I had put makeup on, I had Mom's lunch prepared and waiting for her and heating in the fridge, the house was spotless, the neighbors knew. Mom was actually prepared to have a new person enter our lives.

I had been up since 4 a.m., too excited to sleep. The caregiver was supposed to show up at 8:30 a.m. so I could go over everything and then leave at 9 a.m. I had my whole six hours planned, I was finally ready.

And then at 8:45 a.m. the caregiving company called to tell me that they had to cancel. They were short handed and didn't have anyone to cover this shift in our town.

I had this planned six weeks in advance. Honestly, as I hung up the phone a tear rolled down my cheek. I hadn't realized how much this day meant to me.

I am still quite sad, I can't seem to shake this off just yet. I don't know when I will be able to schedule another day. I have to schedule six weeks in advance and what if this happens again? I just don't know.

Maybe I will spend the day doing tomorrow's chores. :(  Please forgive my moanings and complainings.

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