Singing to the Sky

Bob

shadow-play-5861_640"Struggling with confusion, disillusionment to0


Can turn a man into a shadow, crying out from pain....."*


i wander over the past year wistfully


trying to understand


no answers come...


we've gone through so much


my ambivalence seems to be solving itself


as i take care of you and i take care of me


i still wake up depressed but not as bad


the waves of anxiety seem to be lessening


the multitude of things to be done hasn't changed


but my metronome is set to 4/4 timing


except when I erupt in frustration at some new roadblock


then comes the anger and guilt


i want to fully understand your suffering


and i want to also know truly what you are able to do


i'm confused and " hands are torn and bloody from the scratching at "*


there've been days when i could not go on


i fear they can return


some days i wonder if i will become homeless


but then i think of you lying in that bed


not knowing what's to come and i feel selfish


 i guess this is the work the Lord has meant for me to do


until i can't do it n'more


so i'll make the best of it


my best won't be perfect


i pray He will settle my feet on a rock


and steady my steps


that He puts a new song in my mouth


a song of praise to our God


come quickly Lord


[our} helper and savior**


                             -rsr-  @rainbow


     *  "Stranger to Himself"


                   lyrics


        Capaldi/Winwood


From:  John Barley Corn Must Die


      **Psalm 40


The Jerusalem Bible


Doubleday  New York


            1968




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