Singing to the Sky

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Singing to the Sky

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shadow-play-5861_640"Struggling with confusion, disillusionment to0


Can turn a man into a shadow, crying out from pain....."*


i wander over the past year wistfully


trying to understand


no answers come...


we've gone through so much


my ambivalence seems to be solving itself


as i take care of you and i take care of me


i still wake up depressed but not as bad


the waves of anxiety seem to be lessening


the multitude of things to be done hasn't changed


but my metronome is set to 4/4 timing


except when I erupt in frustration at some new roadblock


then comes the anger and guilt


i want to fully understand your suffering


and i want to also know truly what you are able to do


i'm confused and " hands are torn and bloody from the scratching at "*


there've been days when i could not go on


i fear they can return


some days i wonder if i will become homeless


but then i think of you lying in that bed


not knowing what's to come and i feel selfish


 i guess this is the work the Lord has meant for me to do


until i can't do it n'more


so i'll make the best of it


my best won't be perfect


i pray He will settle my feet on a rock


and steady my steps


that He puts a new song in my mouth


a song of praise to our God


come quickly Lord


[our} helper and savior**


                             -rsr-  @rainbow


     *  "Stranger to Himself"


                   lyrics


        Capaldi/Winwood


From:  John Barley Corn Must Die


      **Psalm 40


The Jerusalem Bible


Doubleday  New York


            1968




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Bob

Thank you EJ. I feel the same way about your photo-poems. Exquisitely moving........

ejourneys

Bob, I echo what everyone else here has said. Your poems touch heights and depths with a raw, stunning power and honesty. And that gives us all strength, together. Thank you so much!

Bob

Oh yes, I believe it il. I have to say I'm speechless with gratitude......

Il

Nice Bob . . . again . . . we are telling you the truth. I don't know if I've ever met anyone who truly walks and acts as I believe Christ would. Yes you can cry. :) il

Bob

I'm the one who feels honored Denise. I cannot begin to tell you how blessed I feel by your comments_mysql. Thank you so very much.\r\n\r\nPegi: I definitely have felt not strong enough to be a caregiver. Your comments_mysql mean so much to me. Like Denise's, II's, and Christine's comments_mysql, my heart and soul are deeply nourished and soothed.\r\n\r\nII: il, you are such a support to me and I'm so glad that I can be the same for you. Thanks for your inspiration and loving-kindness.\r\nAdele appreciates it too!!!! :)\r\n\r\nChristine: I'm knocked out by what you have said...I'm both honored and humbled. You have always been such a good friend and I appreciate you very much as I do all our members and this site we get to share that Denise lovingly created. God Bless you and thank you for the prayers for Adele. Sending prayers to you. Take good care....Bob

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