Stillness

Il

Stillness

Il
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Dad's dementia is progressing. Dad is yelling at the slightest thing. Dad's yelling is starting to scare me. Dad's yelling is re-traumatizing me. Dad's yelling is reminding me  of mortality. Dad's yelling is reminding me to set boundaries. I freeze. Mom sundowns. I don't do what I need. The reprogramming I started unravels.

Am I in stillness? Am I where I'm supposed to be?  Am I still? Am I at Peace?  Am I controlling things? Rest? Peace.

Always,

il

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