Swallow

Denise

Swallow

Denise
sunflower-840807_640Some days, I think I will be swallowed by caregiving.

Swallowed by the pressing need to be available when caregiving needs me, regardless of the hour, my plans, my energy level.

Swallowed by the weight of the responsibility to have the right answers and solutions and supplies on a moment's notice.

Swallowed by the sadness as I watch my parents struggle to keep up, to hang on, to continue.

And, yet, I can't wallow in the swallow.

I can swallow back my fear. I am strong enough.

I can swallow back my doubts. I am wise enough.

I can swallow back my worries. I am brave enough.

I can breathe in gratitude for the opportunity to be present during my parents' most vulnerable hours.

I can breathe in gratitude for the chance to learn and grow and get better.

I can breathe in gratitude to be a part of one of life's most important experiences.

I can breathe.