The Beginning!!


The Beginning!!

(Editor's Note: We welcome Tina, who cares for her husband, to our blogging team today. You can connect with Tina on her profile page: @tina101270.)

thunderstorm-567678_640Last Friday I found out my husbands cancer is bad really bad!! Lung cancer that is now taking over his body. How can this be? We just found out he had cancer three weeks ago!! We haven't even got to see an oncologist yet!!

I am so shocked, devastated, hurt, mad, angry, sad, confused.. What the hell am I supposed to do??? This is soooo wrong!!!!

Today we get the biopsy results. I guess we get to find out what kind of cancer will take his life. This is really stupid!!! We were already told this is inoperable this is terminal!! You have four to six months!! So then leave us alone!! Stop putting our family through all this!!!

My son hides from us. He doesn't want to hear it. He was there last Friday. He heard it all, he knows. Dylan is 15; he's my youngest. I guess I have to have a sit down with him tonight. I have to be strong. I should never have to have this talk with him!!! What a bunch of crap!!!

Let me tell you about my husband. He can fix anything. He loves to fix everything, even the kids' cheap toys from the ice cream man. He's goofy. He always makes me laugh, even when I mad at him he seems to pull a smile out of me. He loves to make me mad. For what ever reason he thinks I'm funny when I'm mad. Gary loves to shop. I hate shopping! We have a good marriage, we get along great. We have been married for 15 years, been together 20 years!!

Well let's see what today holds!!! It is just the beginning of my nightmare.

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Tina, I'm so sorry to hear about your husband's diagnosis. This is difficult, I am sure. It sounds like you and Gary have made so many wonderful memories together, and undoubtedly have beautiful children together. I will hold the best and most positive outcomes for you and your family. I know you will give him all the love you possibly can, and he will be forever grateful.


You are right, this is soooo wrong! I am so sorry you are feeling so blindsided! I am hoping there will be some better truth once the biopsy results are given... sounds like another Doctor with wonderful bedside manners!!! Please continue to blog and reach out. . . we are here for you to bounce your frustrations and feelings off of. I too will be praying for you and your family, your son especially as he figures out how to grieve this crazy, unexpected news! (((HUGS)))


Oh, Tina!! My heart breaks for you! It is very unfair and you shouldn't have to be having these conversations. \r\n\r\nPlease keep sharing yours and Dylan's struggle and more of Gary. We want to know more of the man that has blessed your lives for so many years. \r\n\r\nDenise has created a safe place here to sit in your mess with others who get it. We are here to wrap our arms around you all. \r\n\r\nPrayers for strength during this time.


I'm so, so sorry, Tina. It's all just incredibly unfair.\r\n\r\nPlease keep blogging and reaching out. You can write here what you can't see out there. We understand. \r\n\r\nI'm keeping you and your family in my prayers today. Let us know how you're doing when you can.