Transcendence

Mary

Transcendence

Mary
cloudsMy daughter is going through a rough period of seizure activity. After bouts like this, she can't walk, can't talk, has a hard time swallowing. The fear rises up in me when I think too much: "What if she doesn't recover this time?" "What if she ends up wheelchair bound?" "We'll have to move into a house that could be wheelchair adapted." "What if I become disabled by old age and can no longer lift her?" "What if my husband pre-deceases me? Will I be able to care for her by myself?"  You know how it goes. All these huge, looming, scary thoughts rush in and I find myself overwhelmed and paralyzed by fear.

But God tells us not to fear. God says to trust Him. God says to focus on what is good and give thanks in all situations. Sometimes that just seems ridiculous and downright impossible. But if I take a deep breath and choose to be thankful and choose to trust Him, the terrifying thoughts roll away like so many ominous storm clouds, to reveal the bright light of love and life and the fresh breeze of hope. We take the next little step together. Transcendence.