Update on Us

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Update on Us

lookingheavenward
luggage-64355_640Well it has been a LONG, LONG, LONG time. I am sorry I haven't been able to keep up with my blogging, I haven't been able to keep up with a lot of things as of late. We won't discuss the weeds!

I am SO completely exhausted, totally empty, nothing left in the tank right now. I can't even express my weariness! It has been seven very hard long months of detox. I feel like I have been working at a detox facility working all by myself, no nights or weekends off, no vacation, constant 24/7 care.

On top of all of that we had seven hospital visits/stays within four months and two surgeries on top of that. Mom has now been free of pain medication since April 12, 2015 and what a nightmare it has been. Her fire has gotten 10 times hotter, all of her RSD symptoms are amplified, and she is still fighting a migraine that has lasted over 3 1/2 months. The other night she was actually screaming and crying due to the agony. I was sitting there in the dark on her floor just crying right there with her. It is awful, feeling so helpless while your strong Mom is screaming and crying in the night. I am massaging her about two to three hours each day trying to loosen her neck muscles and help her migraine. I'm not sure it is helping but it is all I know how to do.

Her neuropathy has gotten extremely bad and the homeopathic remedies aren't working. Right now she says her hands and feet don't feel like they are hers and they sicken her. On the up side, her brain is getting better--she is even noticing it! She is remembering things, thinking about things, and she says she feels like she is waking up from a 10-year coma. She is happy we detoxed but hates still suffering from the detox.

On another up note--she is sleeping more so that means I am sleeping more! YAY! I know we will eventually even out on her symptoms and then we can reassess what we want to do. I am just praying my strength will return and I will have the brain power to reassess with her!

I do have some exciting news--I am taking a vacation! It has been six years since I have had a whole day off. My brother is coming out and staying with Mom while I travel to another state for four days. I can not wait! I am starting to write out everything my brother will need to do and know. I pray it goes well for the two of them. Mom is nervous about it but she wants me to go, as do I. A friend blessed me with some money to buy new shoes for my trip and another dear friend is sending me some sample makeup for me to take with me. It is all coming together nicely! I will be sure to let you all know how it goes!

Thanks for putting up with me and my inconsistencies. I will strive to do better! Blessings to you all!