What To Do?

Lisa

What To Do?

Lisa
sunset-639507_640Recently it seems, I have friends dropping out of my network and life. You know the scenario, dropping like flies? That would be it. I'm coming up next month on my 50th birthday. In the last year I have lost four friends that have chose to leave our friendship for one reason or another. Some without explanation. Some due to a disagreement.

But whatever the case it does make me look at myself. As I was telling my best friend today (she's not going anywhere), I can basically count on one had who I consider friends in my life. Friends who I can trust, rely on, spend time with and love. I know some people don't have that many friends, and I've always felt blessed to have the friends I do.

Last night, one of these former friends posted a rant on Facebook about me  She said she was trying to see my posts regarding "recent events in town." I know what she was talking about, she was talking about the suicide death of my friend Mitch. To her surprise, I had her blocked so she couldn't see my posts and comments. This triggered something and made her so angry that she made the ugliest post. She called me everything from being a martyr to weaving a web of deceit. That didn't sit will with me as many of you may know.

Obviously, this is a friend I don't need. I'm just wondering at this season in my life, why is this happening? I really don't understand. I'm exhausted of trying to think about it, and I really don't like having my character assassinated. In the meantime, I'm caregiving.

Last night was a hard night. Add stress from this insane scenario on top of it and you have a mess. I have made a decision to scale back the time that I am on social media quite a bit. I do manage a caregiving group called Inner Strength, as well as a book club/group, and a group for my Avon business. I will work these groups early in the day, then touch base again late in the day.

I feel the need to step back. One thing I know is that my caregiving friends here accept me no matter what. No one's judgmental or unkind. Always concerned and caring. For that I'm so grateful to have a place to come to and feel comfort.