Who To Lean On


Who To Lean On

It will be two months tomorrow.

Two. Months.

Everyday I am a wreck. Every morning I'm in tears. I wake up, say the Rosary and cry.

Sometimes it's all I can do to get home from work before the tears kick in.

As noted before in an update, I have no motivation to do anything. The house is a mess. I haven't cleared out her clothes, her things although I have re-organized her room.

Her cat is not adjusting too well either. Poor Callie Kitty has a UTI. Although she's been here over a year she still won't leave Mom's room. The other cats pick on her because of it. I try to spend a little time with her every day. But she's not happy.

I'm not happy.

In a couple of weeks I will be driving out to Maine with Mom's ashes to bury her. I'm dreading it.

How are we supposed to do these things? I lost my husband in 1996 but I had my mom to lean on. I lost my best friend (we'd been inseparable since the age of 4) in 2015 but I had my mom to lean on.

Who do I lean on now?